God’s Plan

It’s been a while, so I figured I should update everyone quickly on my life..

What a long/short crazy summer it has been. I guess it’s officially fall now….!!!! Which means it’s WEDDING SEASON. I’m so excited. SO excited. (10 days in case anyone was wondering. On Monday, I picked up our marriage license. Holy cow.)

I’m not quite sure how this summer managed to slip away so quickly, but I’m glad it’s over and we are so close to wedding day because honestly? I’m over it. I’m over the planning and trying to get everything figured out and organized. I’m ready for the day to be here and to be able to enjoy it to the fullest with all of our friends and family! We’ve been in this “planning” stage for almost a year now. It’ll be exactly 365 days on wedding day. Yes we are getting married exactly one year from our engagement. Ryan didn’t want anything over a year and I didn’t think I could plan a wedding in 6-8 months. And I’m glad I didn’t try to because this last little bit (especially this summer) has been super stressful and I don’t think I would’ve been able to plan all of this while still being in school. In fact, I even took like the last month and a half off from wedding planning because I wanted to focus on finishing my Senior Thesis, enjoying the last of my days living in Dubuque (for now. I’d like to move back someday) and graduating. Then, Ryan and I went to Ireland for eight days with one of my professors and some other students from UD.

After I got back from that trip, I took about two months off. I’ve been in what everyone else has been calling a transition period, and let me tell you…it’s been interesting. I spent the first month and a half wedding planning and wedding planning and job searching and wedding planning. I finished a lot of things in that first month and a half and then I was mostly focused on finding a job….but I was struggling. Hard.

I spent many days, nights, and weekends applying for jobs, waiting to hear back (which I found out that a LOT of companies these days are very good at “ghosting” youScreen Shot 2018-09-24 at 9.49.54 AM, getting the occasional interview, lots of rejection, and lots of tears and frustration. I had been told upon graduation that I’d be “just fine” and I “wouldn’t have an issue finding a job” because I was a very good student. But let me tell you. I did have an issue finding a job. It felt like it took FOREVER. I felt like I had done something wrong or wasn’t good enough. I mean, almost all of my friends from my major that I had graduated with were getting hired left and right and I was struggling and I couldn’t understand why. I know it was partially because they were in larger cities than I was and there was more opportunity for jobs for them in those bigger cities and less opportunity for me in Pella (but I was searching Pella, Des Moines, Knoxville, Oskaloosa, Grinnell, Newton, Marshalltown, even Iowa City…I was willing to go almost anywhere within an hour of Sully which is where I’ll be living after Ryan and I get married.) and, all of my friends all pretty good designers. But I couldn’t seem to understand that God was trying to tell me that I just wasn’t ready to transition into full-time job yet. And that was the hardest thing I had to learn.

By July, I was very low on funds because weddings are expensive and it doesn’t help when you have no source of income to help keep your bank account afloat. So, I finally reached out to my favorite coffee shop in Pella and applied. I later got an interview and offered the job. I have worked at Brew Coffee House now for 2 months, and tomorrow is my last day *sad face :(*. I had worked in coffee all four years in college and so it was easy for me to transition back into working with coffee and customers. I love working at the Brew. I enjoy making coffee and talking to customers, getting to know people…especially the ones I know of (because living in a small town like this, you know of a lot of people, but you don’t really know them.) One of my professors from UD (whom I went to about my frustrations with not being able to find a job right away) told me that working at the Brew was going to be how I found my future full-time job. She told me I would be networking with customers and through that, somehow, a job was going to open up for me. And she was right.

One morning, one of my childhood friends’ mom came into the Brew for some coffee. She and I got to talking and it was the typical “oh so what are you up to now?” and I responded with my usual “oh, just working here until I can find something full time”. Later that day though, I got a text from her saying she had run into a guy (who is her neighbor) and he works at the Town Crier and they got to talking and she said she had talked to a friend of her daughter’s today who works at the Brew about how it’s hard to find a full-time job. He asked what I got my degree in and she told him graphic design and he’s was like “whoa, wait a minute. We are going to be looking to hire a graphic artist soon.” She was surprised because the Town Crier (my new place of employment!!!) doesn’t usually have job openings because the people that work there tend to stay working there until retirement. Anywho, one thing lead to another and she texted me saying she had talked to him and that I should go in and meet him in person. So I did. And then soon after, I was being interviewed and offered the position right on the spot!

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I had talked/vented to many people over the summer about how much it sucks not being able to find a job. For a while, it seemed like all I could focus on and I was becoming obsessed with the idea of trying to get a job and the frustrations that came along with not finding one right away. I had soooo many people tell me that “it’ll happen when the time is right.” or “It’s all in God’s timing.” or “you’re pretty busy right now, so maybe that’s why God isn’t allowing you to have a full-time job yet. You have a lot on your plate and this is just your transition period. After your wedding, maybe life will slow down and God will then open up a door for you. You have way too much going on right now and God knows that if you had a full-time job on top of it, it all will just be too much.”

Well, surprise.

God did open the door for me. And I didn’t even have to wait until after the wedding!! This was a huuuuuge relief and weight off of not only my shoulders but my family and friends’ as well.  I am thankful now for those people telling me those things because as I look back on this summer, that was all true….but that was not what I wanted to hear most of the time. I am not a very patient person….at all. And I struggled to wait for the right job opportunity to come to me. But God is good. God is oh, so good. And I am very thankful for the lessons He’s taught me this summer. And all I can think of is “God’s tenorplan….God’s plan. I hold back, sometimes I won’t, I feel good, sometimes I don’t.”Because that song has basically been the soundtrack to my summer. Sometimes I was feeling good about where I am in life, and sometimes I definitely wasn’t. But thanks to God’s plan (not the song), I’m right where I need to be at this moment in my life.

So, currently, I am working part-time at the Brew, part-time at Town Crier, doing some freelance graphic design on the side (feel free to hit me up if you have any projects or know of anyone who does!), getting our future home ready (because Ryan moves in this weekend and I’ll move in next weekend once we are MARRIED), and finishing up all of the last minute wedding plans. My life is crazy, busy and kind of stressful, but I wouldn’t want to change it. I’m pretty used to being busy because in college I was very involved on campus and worked a lot, so this isn’t really that much of a change for me. However, I seem to have come down with a case of what is called “bridal brain” and I’m much more forgetful than I used to be because I have so many things going on and so many things that need to get done that my brain has simply run out of storage. Hopefully after the wedding is over and I get settled in to the married life and start full-time at the Town Crier, the cloudiness in my brain will subside and I will be able to have my memory back…but until then, I will keep writing everything down so I (hopefully) don’t forget anything that needs to be done.

I am so excited. So, so, so excited. As someone said to me the other day that my wedding is in fact NEXT WEEKEND (which hit me like a ton of bricks at first and made it feel SO real) and I am excited for everything to come between now and then. I can’t wait to spend the day with our loved ones and finally get to say “I do” to the love of my life and start our forever together.

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